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Friday, May 29, 2009

@5/29/2009

today last day of school was total crap la..early in the morning councillor board jiu so tense up Zzz...because of 2 pple dun talk abt it den Mr wong come talk talk to us...den took up 45mins of our mt class ... den class contact nothing much blah blah blah waste time den mrs menon talk rubbish to me?because those dont really concerns me except the o lvl thing...i really need buck up le...i can see my socks when i m wearing shoe...so need pull up my socks n buck up!... before npcc i went to play volleyball with min you ... lol den after that go di siao shawn side de volleyball den fuck up my leg injuried because i tried to save a ball den didnt see well den knock into uncle den my leg blue black..internal bleeding till now still cant walk well...cant run much
NPCC
last normal training for us but the attendance was totall bull shyt can...so little people come spoil my mood den i keep screaming at those people as their actions are really from slow to tortoise?idk...i really tired le i really hope that they can change for the better...after so long for their squad IC stepping down le i realise i didnt do much to them to change except a couple of them..can see improvement others really CMI...in the camp i would really give everything in le...after that den i see how mahs...i want to come back as CI but see my o lvl results first ... now my results sucks like hell..Mr Ang tempted me make me heart itchy but studies come first bahs...haiish...those secondary 2 people played captians ball,n frisbee i only participated mch on frisbee because of my leg...mel mel teach them how to play because they dun really noe much =) nothing much on that though just that they r quick learners for games but why not quicklearners for drills n others?!...i can say my heart n soul had been in alot but i feel useless cant doing help for them...i want them to change n even me not serving the unit next year i come back i say see them as 1 bonded squad not like now scattered sand still...haiish idk n dun want talk abt it le...

i dunno wht can i do now...u see me u feel weird wht can i do to prevent this from happening?i really start to feel the distant but i probably cant live without you now?everyday i really hope to see u first n see you most...even my leg injuried i think the pain is not as pain as my heart...now is like a puzzle who will fixed it back for me i really hope is u but idk now...haiish i promise n feel that i would continue to fight for the honours!...i wun give up!...